Faith journey (Between 2010-2011)

          Hi readers I would like to share with you my own journey of faith. What lead me to be a Christian the types of things I have experienced and how I ended up like i'am.  I was raised in a Christian home although my grandma (who raised me) did not attend church but usually watched it on tv. I used to join her and I was pretty good at keeping up with praying when I was young kid. Somewhere between me being a kid and a teenager I lost interest in Christianity and i'm not sure how or why. I all of a sudden did not pray as much  or bothered my self with any church at all.
       My lack of faith continued with me to my adult years when I finally left my grandma's house and got my own place. I went through some tribulations and drama when I left my grandma's house and I was pretty much on my own to face it all. My grandma got mad because I took a friend in who lost their place and was about to be on the streets so when I went through tough times I was pretty much on my own. I don't know if any of you have had your family saying they want nothing to do with you and you do not know why but it is very sad and heartbreaking. Through all of this I managed to hold on to my place and my job but I think all the stress started the health problems I developed later on. I remember my grandma the only family I had quit talking to me close to Thanks Giving. Those holidays was sad for me and I would have spent them alone if my roommates family did not have me come to be with them but I did not feel welcomed there because a lot of them was wondering what is he doing here? he has his own family. Christmas day it was raining I went out to the rain and broke down in tears.
      January rolled around me and my grandma starts talking again things are ok until she gets mad because she started with the I did not get nothing for Christmas or you did not get me an elaborate gift for my birthday. She ended up starting drama a bit before my birthday in March which was my worst birthday ever and I will never forget it. She did not even call except to tell me "I forwarded a piece of mail that came here by mistake have fun with it".On top of this one of my friends and her family had a falling out and I was still sore from that.
      July rolls around and I make new friends and they seem interesting and like good people. It was something I felt I needed because of me feeling like I hit the bottom emotionally. These friends talked to me about Wicca and it caught my interest. I got really into it tarot,Ouija,reading up on the Wicca faith, and reading on rituals the whole works. For the first time  I had a good group of friends and felt that sense of belonging I searched for. I started to get real attached to material things. I had to have the latest clothes,latest games,and whatever else I could buy. I even bought stuff for my friends including bikes. I thought yeah i'm living it up.
       Things started to get tough financially hours got cut at work and all of sudden I had a hard time even making basic needs. I still kept spending and having with out much of a care. I became a non believer in god and said the bible was just another man made book and god did not create the world. I would argue these points to anyone my family,my roommates family,and any christian. I developed a real heartened heart over my family and my ex friends family. I did not care what anyone thought I got arrogant and said to many "Christianity is false I do it all on my own no help,no god there can not be a god with what I went through".
      That Christmas I had a turn around of faith I had a vision through out the early morning  it spoke to me God I felt told me that Christmas morning "my son died for you and you have been ungrateful". I woke up feeling saddened I fell to my knees and prayed for the first time in many years. This was my turn around I lost my attachment to material things over the next few months I even started to attend church on a regular basis. Several months after attending church and reading the bible I learned forgiveness and forgave those that I had grudges with. I had some people not to happy with my new found faith I had some "friends" leave over me being a Christian and that is fine if they did not want to accept me as i'am I felt they was not true friends.
     Now that I look back the drama and grudges back then it was so silly. Also I do not understand why I had such an attachment to material things other than I feel I was trying to fill a void left by my family. I was searching for things to distract me from life from and  all the pain. I was searching in the wrong areas though I kept buying material things but my happiness was very temporary. I accumulated lots of debts from my shopping sprees now I wonder why did I waste time and money with all this stuff?
     I hope you guys enjoyed reading! As much as I enjoyed sharing with all of you. I thank God for all the friends who have stuck with me and continue to encourage me through the journey of life.

Changes

   Change is just one six  letter word  but it can stir up a wide variety of emotions. It can bring up fear,anxiety,and excitement sometimes all of these emotions happen at once. Sometimes it can mean giving things up your accustom to doing sometimes you have to give these things up because your unwillingly put in to a situation that you have no choice. Sometimes you may have to make a change out of necessity for your health like giving up certain foods you really like. It can even be you want to change something in your own life because you really want to.
      Change is never easy even a change that you willingly make can bring up emotions. A forced change one you do not want to make but have to is to me the scariest kind of change. Even a change of living like a move brings up all kinds of feelings especially if you lived in a town or a state your whole life. For me I experienced a lot of change over the past year. I have experienced the change of going to college which was exciting. I experienced the forced change after losing a job I held on to for five years. I even experienced the change based on health problems. The most recent change for me was the change of living. I lived in Glendale my whole life even when I left my grandmas house I still remained in that city. I lived with in distance where I could  see my grandma easily and be there if need be. Recently I had to move to Chandler out of necessity because of financial struggles and in to my In-laws home who welcomed me with open arms. I'm thankful for their welcome but I was still nervous because I was used to Glendale and living on my own after moving out of my grandmas. Anyone who has lived on their own but then has to move in with a group of people knows what i'm talking about, it just is so much different being on your own with your own place. Frankly I enjoy being out on my own and having my own place.
       Change is not easy to deal with and sometimes it can be harsh or leave damaging effects. Sometimes change can even be like an exciting adventure a new unexplored chapter of life begging you to explore deeper. My personal changes as painful as they can be at times I try to make the most out of it and trust that I will come out of it better than I was when I walked in. Thank you for reading.

Tales of Cellphone Failure(on my part not the phones) part 2

    Hello readers this is a continuation off of my tales of cellphone failure post. So has this ever happened to you it is late at night you have a friend messaging you (lets call him George) messaging you and you respond to George or so you think but you never hear nothing back. The next day you wake up start your day with a cup of coffee check your phone messages to see you have a few missed phone calls and a few messages from your other friend (lets call him Jim) wondering why you are messaging him so late and what are you even talk about? I have had this happen a lot you respond to a message from one person but the response mysteriously goes elsewhere. Even more embarrassed than if I had a typeo I begin to think what how did that happen was this a slip of the finger? was this my phone developing a mind of its own? is a force greater than me entering my house in an invisible form to communicate with my phone? who knows. Damage being done of the person being woken up by my message sending error, with a message that has subject matter no clearer to the person it was not intended for than a hazy fog all I could offer is an apology.
     Then the person that the message was meant for also sends you a message the same morning saying why did you not message me back? then I have to muster up the  strength to explain the minions of mischief left the land of random acts and  decided to use my phone last night. I have had friends say "did you lose your mind sometime last night?" wondering why I got such an odd text message so early I will hesitantly check my phone to realize the message meant for friend A went to friend B and not realize how? Is this a technical error of some kind? a slip of the finger? or just another one of those hmmmm I wonder how that happened mysteries that will never know for sure?
       I hope you enjoyed reading feel free to comment or share your own stories!

Tales of Cellphone Failure (on my part not the phones)

 Hi everyone so I was texting several times today only to get a giant question mark for a response. I wonder why for a few seconds then I go back through my phone only to realize I invented my own language with out realizing it. How embarrassing my hands was typing way faster than my mind was processing the information then off goes the messages with no proof reading. Today alone I turned something into sometheat,some the iikin,and somfthiat still not sure how I did those but ok. Even worse then the question marks that I have got today there has been times where I got what are you even talk about? sometimes my friends probably think I have lost my mind with some of the gibberish I have sent them on messages. Some of them deep down probably thought I was insulting their dear old aunt or something in some ancient language with some of the bizarre words I have typed up with out realizing it.  

       Sometimes I will even read stuff real fast especially if i'm in a rush and comment on it thinking I at least have the main idea down,only to realize I failed miserably at processing the information. Of course I usually figure this out after a strange look when I comment on what I read or I read it after I say something then re-read the information. I always find these kinds of things funny when they happen how different parts of the body work way faster then the mind is processing. So friends has this happened to you? 

       My next two favorite things is when you have your phone in your pocket and it texts then sends something along the lines efghitomn dftiokl to somebody for them to recieve it and think you have finally lost your mind. My other favorite is a less common one for me but I have had it happen when your really tired and your texting or emailing half asleep and your message only makes since a tiny bit the rest is a mystery for the person receiving it to decipher. One example I have for being tired and texting is I once sent something along the lines of Ok godintieo I will tlks tou klonmrow translation have a good night I will talk to you tomorrow. Another less common one for me is falling asleep on the computer keyboard or phone and having a bunch of one letter get typed up and sent.

        More hilarious and annoying than a phone texting in the pocket is one calling someone while in your pocket. I remember one time my phone turned on in my pocket (I had it off because I was at work) it then pocket dialed my grandma, after that I hear a crash and realize my phone fell out of my pocket. I pick it up noticed the phone hanged up on her after a few seconds I shrugged my shoulders did not think nothing of it turned my phone back off and went back to work. About 30 minutes after this incident my grandma comes running through the doors of my job real frantic she approaches me and said "I went by your apartment but your wife said you was not home and at work". I said "ok" she said "I hurried down there then here because I was worried all I heard was muffled voices then your phone drop" how embarrassing that was. I have also had it happen where I will hear a disgruntled voice come from my pocket and I will look dumb founded what is it that is talking to me? only to realize my phone called someone and had them on the phone the past ten minutes.  

             That is all I have for now I hope you enjoyed the post and got a good laugh out of it.

What do you think about the state of the world?

What would you say about the state of the world? given all of the bad weather and all of the bad news of things happening everywhere? Would you say things have gotten worse? or have things always been just as bad as it is in the current age? Would you say things are better now then they were back 20 or 30 years ago? What are your thoughts please share.

Life is a journey

    Hi readers this is only my second blog that I have ever wrote and i'm hoping I do not mess it up to bad. Anyways readers I want to talk about a topic that has been in my head for awhile,the topic is life is not easy? I think we can all agree on that to some level that all of us have a problem or problems in our lives. Sometimes to me it feels like being lost at sea and every problem I face is like the ocean roaring and bombarding me tossing me around with out a boat or life preserver. Even through all of this I try to maintain a positive attitude as much as possible even as difficult as it can be sometimes.
    You probably wonder how can someone have such a positive attitude through such difficult things like health issues,deaths in the family,and even loss of a job (all these scenarios I have seen the past year and half)? my answer is my faith if I did not have my faith i'm not quite sure what would happen I probably would have fallen apart so I can say from my experience Christ saves. When i'm down I look up trusting fully in the Lord as difficult as it can be sometimes. I know plenty of people in not such good situations that manage to hold on to their peace by faith alone! So I feel faith is very important in life from my experience it has helped me and guided me to where i'am today I definitely still have struggles but who doesn't? Actually the more I think about it the more blessed I realize i'am sometimes that is all it takes to turn a negative situation in to a better one or even a bad situation into a learning experience is changing how you view the problems around you.
     Thank you for reading my thoughts I hope you enjoyed them and I hope this blog inspires you because that is what I aim for. I'm not a Christian to condemn or judge (all though I have my struggles sometimes with these kinds of emotions) but I feel the need to uplift and make you feel better inspire you to seek more great blessings in life. Peace in Christ friends.